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"I'm pretty sure that Kavinsky's in love with me."
He blurts it out, all of a sudden, lying on his side in bed with a movie playing on the laptop. He rolls over to look up at Poison, eyebrows raised. "I mean, I know he is. But...it's not a big deal. It's not. It's just...something I'm not okay with you not knowing anymore."
He blurts it out. And then he waits.
He blurts it out, all of a sudden, lying on his side in bed with a movie playing on the laptop. He rolls over to look up at Poison, eyebrows raised. "I mean, I know he is. But...it's not a big deal. It's not. It's just...something I'm not okay with you not knowing anymore."
He blurts it out. And then he waits.
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Date: 2016-08-31 08:40 pm (UTC)When he thinks about it like that, he feels slightly better. He nods, leaning up to brush a kiss against the corner of Poison's mouth.
"You're right," he says. "Rationally, I know that."
On 31 August 2016 at 21:39, afabulouskilljoy - DW Comment < dw_null@dreamwidth.org> wrote:
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Date: 2016-08-31 08:50 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-08-31 08:52 pm (UTC)"You don't suck at it," says Jack, and then Poison's kissing him, kissing him properly, and Jack makes a soft sound against his mouth, shifting to press closer.
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Date: 2016-08-31 09:00 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-08-31 09:18 pm (UTC)"Still talking," says Jack, with a smile, but he's definitely feeling more relaxed. "Right."
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Date: 2016-08-31 10:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-08-31 10:40 pm (UTC)"No surprises," promises Jack, his eyes crossing slightly when Poison pinches his nose like that. "And I'm always coming home. Whatever happens. This is home." He's come to think of Poison's apartment as his home; he barely spends any time in his own apartment anymore.
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Date: 2016-08-31 11:46 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-09-01 10:57 am (UTC)"I love you too," says Jack, looking Poison in the eyes for a moment before he turns his head to catch Poison's fingers with a kiss. "We'll figure it out." He sighs, pressing himself closer. "I'm a terrible Buddhist."
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Date: 2016-09-01 02:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-09-01 05:03 pm (UTC)"Do no harm," says Jack, but he's mostly joking because it feels like something that they can work out between them. He trails his fingers down the side of Poison's face. "If this happens, if it works out, is there...anything you'd...you know...rather I didn't do with him?"
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Date: 2016-09-01 05:04 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-09-01 05:07 pm (UTC)He tucks himself in alongside Poison his head against his shoulder.
"We got...I didn't have to red light him the first time, but he gave me an opt out." Jack looks down at him. "This can be visceral, you know? Just stuff you...don't like the thought of."
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Date: 2016-09-01 05:35 pm (UTC)"I don't-- I mean half of the things in my head right now are kind of petty 'cause I'm still a little raw," he points out. He's trying to sift through those. "I don't-- I don't want you to like-- but I know what you like, how can I tell you not to enjoy that whenever you want it?" Even if it's not with him. Poison frowns, really trying to do this.
Jack needs him to, right?
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Date: 2016-09-01 05:48 pm (UTC)"Like I said, I'm okay with you setting boundaries viscerally," says Jack, nuzzling against Poison's chest. "I need some parameters here, baby. I need boundaries."
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Date: 2016-09-01 05:54 pm (UTC)He scrubs his face with his hands, trying to think.
"Don't get too vulnerable, not at first. I mean. I know you're really into a lot of humiliation stuff, just. Be careful with it I guess. For a while. Unless I get to bet there too." Which maybe isn't fair to ask, but he's not even saying he has to be involved. He just wants to be close. "Don't-- don't let him hurt you a lot."
What the fuck is he even saying?
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Date: 2016-09-01 05:56 pm (UTC)"He wouldn't hurt me." He says it quietly, but it's designed to reassure. He knows that, in Kavinsky, there is something violent held in check. But he also knows how Kavinsky looks at him.
"All of that feels pretty reasonable, baby."
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Date: 2016-09-01 05:59 pm (UTC)Some of that is reasonable, right? Jack has his own apartment so maybe it's weird to demand to know if he's not coming home, but he's already said it.
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Date: 2016-09-01 06:00 pm (UTC)"I will tell you," says Jack, coming the hair back from Poison's face. "I'll check in. Do you need to know if I'm spending time with him during the day or just if I'm going to be somewhere else at night?"
On 1 September 2016 at 18:59, afabulouskilljoy - DW Comment < dw_null@dreamwidth.org> wrote:
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Date: 2016-09-01 06:03 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-09-01 06:04 pm (UTC)"This isn't just hanging out and you know it," says Jack, his tone gentle. "It's okay if you want to know what's happening when. Or...if you don't want to know."
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Date: 2016-09-01 06:08 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-09-01 06:17 pm (UTC)"I've got one boyfriend," says Jack, firmly. "Not looking for another one." He tucks his fingers under the hem of Poison's t-shirt so that he can touch his bare skin, looking to feel grounded.
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Date: 2016-09-01 06:19 pm (UTC)"Do you think this'll be... permanent?"
Maybe some secret part of him hopes that this will run its course somehow. But that doesn't feel fair, either.
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Date: 2016-09-01 06:21 pm (UTC)He rolls one shoulder in a shrug, leaning in to chase the kiss a little, pressing another against the corner of Poison's mouth.
"Guess I don't know until I start."
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