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Aug. 30th, 2016 07:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
"I'm pretty sure that Kavinsky's in love with me."
He blurts it out, all of a sudden, lying on his side in bed with a movie playing on the laptop. He rolls over to look up at Poison, eyebrows raised. "I mean, I know he is. But...it's not a big deal. It's not. It's just...something I'm not okay with you not knowing anymore."
He blurts it out. And then he waits.
He blurts it out, all of a sudden, lying on his side in bed with a movie playing on the laptop. He rolls over to look up at Poison, eyebrows raised. "I mean, I know he is. But...it's not a big deal. It's not. It's just...something I'm not okay with you not knowing anymore."
He blurts it out. And then he waits.
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Date: 2016-08-30 06:58 pm (UTC)Maybe.
"How do you know? I mean. Okay rewind, what's bringing this up? Did he say something?" He sits up a bit, and he gets that sort of look on his face, the one that says he's listening and concerned for Jack and trying to understand all at once.
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Date: 2016-08-30 07:08 pm (UTC)"I knew about it, sort of, but it didn't really sink in until I was a...Until last week." He tilts his head, looking up at Poison, relieved that that's the look on his face. "Because, like...if it was just a crush, it'd be linked to what I looked like, right? And Kavinsky is so, so not into girls."
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Date: 2016-08-30 07:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-08-30 07:14 pm (UTC)"I know I'm not a girl," says Jack, huffing a laugh and shaking his head. "And I never felt like a girl. But I definitely looked like one for a bit. And I saw the way he was looking at me."
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Date: 2016-08-30 07:18 pm (UTC)"How do you feel about that?"
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Date: 2016-08-30 07:31 pm (UTC)"About him feeling like that about me?" He rolls one bare shoulder in a shrug. "Not sure what I'm supposed to feel about it? He saw me nearly naked when I was a girl. I stripped off in front of him without even thinking about it. I think it kind of screwed him up."
On 30 August 2016 at 20:18, afabulouskilljoy - DW Comment < dw_null@dreamwidth.org> wrote:
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Date: 2016-08-30 07:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-08-30 07:43 pm (UTC)"Yeah, sort of," says Jack, relieved when Poison's posture relaxes a little bit. "I don't think he was expecting it, either."
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Date: 2016-08-30 07:49 pm (UTC)It sounds like Kav hasn't made a move or a confession or anything, but that doesn't mean Jack doesn't feel weird.
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Date: 2016-08-30 07:57 pm (UTC)"Kav? No." Jack shakes his head, rubbing his hand back through his hair. "I mean...I think I'd feel less weird about it if I didn't find him attractive?"
There's no point in not being honest.
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Date: 2016-08-30 08:03 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-08-30 08:25 pm (UTC)"No." There's not hint of hesitation. "Just because...Just because there's something physical there. I'm in love with you. Period."
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Date: 2016-08-30 08:35 pm (UTC)He rests his head and watches Jack's face. "So... is there anything you feel like you need to do about this? Or you just want me to know?"
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Date: 2016-08-30 08:39 pm (UTC)"More than anything, I didn't feel right without you knowing," says Jack, his eyes dancing over Poison's face. "I...he touched me. While I was a girl. Mostly because I don't think he ever had?"
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Date: 2016-08-30 08:58 pm (UTC)"Yeah? How was that?"
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Date: 2016-08-30 09:00 pm (UTC)"Nothing happened!" protests Jack, his cheeks flushing violently. "I wouldn't do that to you again. Just...Yeah. He got pretty freaking flustered."
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Date: 2016-08-30 09:08 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-08-30 09:10 pm (UTC)"I don't know," says Jack, rubbing his hands over his face and then turning to press his face into Poison's side. "What am I supposed to do about it? He's my best friend here."
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Date: 2016-08-30 09:18 pm (UTC)He shrugs helplessly.
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Date: 2016-08-30 09:22 pm (UTC)"Not in so many words," says Jack, shaking his head. "He...yeah. Told me he had a crush on me, but I'm pretty sure it's more than that." He closes his eyes. "God, please don't think it reflects on anything we've got that I don't know what the hell I want right now."
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Date: 2016-08-30 09:27 pm (UTC)He moves his hand so Jack can answer.
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Date: 2016-08-30 09:30 pm (UTC)Jack's smiling when Poison moves his hand. Blushed but smiling.
"About us? No. Not really about Kavinsky, either. But...like...I've made a mistake there once already and those feelings haven't gone away, just because I fucked up."
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Date: 2016-08-30 09:36 pm (UTC)"Kav's got two partners already. Which-- I mean it doesn't--" He makes a helpless gesture, because he has no idea what he's trying to say.
"If you ever feel like... you really need to explore something just. Let me know, I guess."
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Date: 2016-08-30 09:39 pm (UTC)"I don't want to put you in that position again," says Jack, shaking his head. "No matter what I...what I might..." He shakes his head. "Not going to happen."
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